ok "street's wet, you can tell by the sound of the cars" is a perfect lyric that has dominated my life since i was 15, you legit should do voice acting, and that is also my stop please send me the stairs video next time!
Love the Tony! Toni! Toné! Shoutout. Also to be terribly sincere for a second your writing a few months back about getting help for your anorexia really touched me and your firm gentleness toward yourself in that moment really helped me address something in myself. I much appreciate it xx
Thank you for saying this. I feel like choosing to share that with you all has really kept me honest with myself. I want to write something about it, but I haven't reached the moment of clarity about it to provide me with the right words. It's so hard to be firm with yourself about self-punishing behavior because so much of it is done in private. Eating is just a factory of this awful cycle I've struggled to shake, but I'm making progress. I hope you're doing well and making progress with your stuff too. We can do this.
Mackenzie I love you! I wax for a living lol… and hurting a stranger is one of the most surreal feelings I’ve ever experienced. Also showing hole to a stranger takes a lot. Anyways cheers and congrats on 1 year imma be around for the long haul <3
My coconut oil is Cookie dough. The pre portioned squares are great for it but one time I got the 1 pound tub and left the spoon in there. I truly tried and conquered.
Also you “biblically striking out” the past weeks really speaks to me bc that’s how I felt I’ve been but couldn’t describe it well. It felt like the lowest point of my life even though that’s questionable. (Speeding ticket, small fender bender that was absolutely STUPIDLY my fault, another insurance claim made against me where there 0% any damage I caused, and an absolutely crisis from internal analysis about college productivity)
It was like there’s seriously something up with me in a mysterious sense that it’s kind of laughable. But now it’s my spring break and I feel essence of the leaves turning over.
Finally, I want to give myself the gift of space to gather from the dollar store and use all the little shit things I’ve kept and put in a box to make something with it. And make and keep and keep making something worthy to scan. I mean I’ll just scan everything. I think I’ll get myself a handheld scanner and rule the world
Are you also a Big Texture Lover like Me? I crave certain textures and so I'll center snacks around them. Love a good sandy streusel crumble thing and I always whip it up with nonsense I've got on hand. And Whip ..If I don't have a milk frother on hand, things get bleak. I'm a gratuitous olive oil eater and full fat dairy gorger. Can't recall if you've ever mentioned your thoughts on greek yogurt.
I have a lot of rituals with my food. When I eat ice cream I smooth out the top after I take a bit. When I eat beans I take the casing off with my teeth inside my mouth before I fully commit to eating it. I think I like coconut oil because I usually get to taste it melting. Love love love that.
I love coconut oil too. It speeds up metabolism a lot and is one of the healthiest sources of fats you can get. Also a strong antioxidant so I eat it whenever my stomach hurts
You make me lol for reals - thank u for this blog! Btw, just observing that u clearly have a thing for eating goop (thinking about the coconut oil and ur lipgloss diary entry)
Happy Anniversary! I always love reading your monthly insights. In my personal experience, the music I let into my life after a breakup becomes integral to who I am in the following months & I always remember it so vividly. Elliott Smith is a great artist for times like these.
You’re not missing much forgoing the bikini wax. Past a certain age, is it acceptable to start letting it all hang out? If so, I’ll wait until I’ve reached that age before wearing another bikini
I liked your line about documenting things that are meaningful only to you. I'm going to do more of that.
Same. I do this, too but after reading her comment I’ll consider it less pointless
ok "street's wet, you can tell by the sound of the cars" is a perfect lyric that has dominated my life since i was 15, you legit should do voice acting, and that is also my stop please send me the stairs video next time!
Love the Tony! Toni! Toné! Shoutout. Also to be terribly sincere for a second your writing a few months back about getting help for your anorexia really touched me and your firm gentleness toward yourself in that moment really helped me address something in myself. I much appreciate it xx
Thank you for saying this. I feel like choosing to share that with you all has really kept me honest with myself. I want to write something about it, but I haven't reached the moment of clarity about it to provide me with the right words. It's so hard to be firm with yourself about self-punishing behavior because so much of it is done in private. Eating is just a factory of this awful cycle I've struggled to shake, but I'm making progress. I hope you're doing well and making progress with your stuff too. We can do this.
Thank you Mackenzie. We can do it!!!!
clementine... <3
Mackenzie I love you! I wax for a living lol… and hurting a stranger is one of the most surreal feelings I’ve ever experienced. Also showing hole to a stranger takes a lot. Anyways cheers and congrats on 1 year imma be around for the long haul <3
My coconut oil is Cookie dough. The pre portioned squares are great for it but one time I got the 1 pound tub and left the spoon in there. I truly tried and conquered.
Also you “biblically striking out” the past weeks really speaks to me bc that’s how I felt I’ve been but couldn’t describe it well. It felt like the lowest point of my life even though that’s questionable. (Speeding ticket, small fender bender that was absolutely STUPIDLY my fault, another insurance claim made against me where there 0% any damage I caused, and an absolutely crisis from internal analysis about college productivity)
It was like there’s seriously something up with me in a mysterious sense that it’s kind of laughable. But now it’s my spring break and I feel essence of the leaves turning over.
Finally, I want to give myself the gift of space to gather from the dollar store and use all the little shit things I’ve kept and put in a box to make something with it. And make and keep and keep making something worthy to scan. I mean I’ll just scan everything. I think I’ll get myself a handheld scanner and rule the world
You absolutely need a scanner. It’s the only companion for a girl. They can be expensive but if you can find one for cheap CLING to it!
babe wake up new mackenzie monthly notes just dropped
wow ty for linking that song by maude, it's so good!!
That’s my girl!!!!
Are you also a Big Texture Lover like Me? I crave certain textures and so I'll center snacks around them. Love a good sandy streusel crumble thing and I always whip it up with nonsense I've got on hand. And Whip ..If I don't have a milk frother on hand, things get bleak. I'm a gratuitous olive oil eater and full fat dairy gorger. Can't recall if you've ever mentioned your thoughts on greek yogurt.
I have a lot of rituals with my food. When I eat ice cream I smooth out the top after I take a bit. When I eat beans I take the casing off with my teeth inside my mouth before I fully commit to eating it. I think I like coconut oil because I usually get to taste it melting. Love love love that.
Magic Shell enthusiast.. making it from scratch is culinary Alchemy
you have made me embrace myself so heavily this year with your work. thank you for starting this blog. i love you mackenzie <3
I love coconut oil too. It speeds up metabolism a lot and is one of the healthiest sources of fats you can get. Also a strong antioxidant so I eat it whenever my stomach hurts
You make me lol for reals - thank u for this blog! Btw, just observing that u clearly have a thing for eating goop (thinking about the coconut oil and ur lipgloss diary entry)
Congrats on a year! 🎂💕
Happy Anniversary! I always love reading your monthly insights. In my personal experience, the music I let into my life after a breakup becomes integral to who I am in the following months & I always remember it so vividly. Elliott Smith is a great artist for times like these.
Wait my period is also like 50 days late what is GOING ON !!! Want to add too that i love ur monthly notes :) x
You’re not missing much forgoing the bikini wax. Past a certain age, is it acceptable to start letting it all hang out? If so, I’ll wait until I’ve reached that age before wearing another bikini